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We Bark. We Curse. We Rape. & We Roll. ♥ ♥ ♥
MISSING HIM! :(
I miss my boyfie even more when I saw that pic DD':
It hurts so much for being apart, yeah everyone knows.
I don't wanna think about this missing feeling as often as I can hold on of it.
I try to be tough overtimes, smiles widely and pretend to be strong, joking and fooling around with peeps, try to act like a clown instead of a melancholic girl who always shows up her gloomy face. Well, I'll just try my best to do that such of thing!
But then, when I just start to feel misrable, when the sadness bang on in my heart intractability and those tears burst out from my eyes so quickly, the first thing that drifted on my brain is just,
HIM.
and my quite irrestisible willingness;
wish he were here to hug me.
DD':
P.S :Dear, I know it's hard, it's sucks, for us, to deal up with this loneliness; that always sweeps out the happiness and somehow brings out the sorrowness. But i'm quite sure, well frankly, i've never been so sure like this before, that we both could pass this well, no matter what happens or what future brings, sooner or later. I'd prefer to trust you rather than keep on worried about those none-important-little-thingy. :) ILY,nd that's all that counts. xoxo <33
Labels: Daily life, LDR, Life
This Pain Keeps Bleeding
Ah dear letter, are you shitting at me?
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He called me last night. And he totally broke me up T.T
I've never thought that he could do this bunch of crap to me D:
He called me and told me that f*ckn thing I've ever heard,
When he said, "This distance is killing me. I couldn't do this anymore. I'm tired of this and blah blah blah."
He called me and told me that f*ckn thing I've ever heard,
When he said, "This distance is killing me. I couldn't do this anymore. I'm tired of this and blah blah blah."
I was hang up the phone and turned off it.
I tried to smile. But it didn't work. I tried to stop trembling. But still, it didn't work. I tried to hold on those tears. Really. I've been attempted that haaaarrrdddd to not crying. I slapped myself, I tufted my hair, I bit my lips intractability, but it doesn't work eventually.
I felt soo vulnerable. Wrecked.
Suddenly, tears fell down from my eyes. I couldn't hold it anymore. I cried softly *just incase if my parents could heard it*.
I snobbed. my body are all trembling.
Damn, I was crying like a baby.
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10 mintues later, I called him back. I want to talk about these things; clearly and with presence of mind. He answered. We've been talk for about 11 minutes. He explained everything. The reason why did he ###### ## me. I tried to understand. Ok, I've ever do this even though it past long ago. last year, i've made a big mistake to him. big mistake ever. i thought that he wouldn't forgive me. surprisingly, he did.
But For God's sake, it has been past looooooong ago and why did he have to talked about it on phone yesterday?! last year, he said that he was totally forgive me for being such an idiot. He said that it was ok. but then, he discussed about it last night and took it as the reason why did he cheated on me. ow. finally, i've wrote those word. oh whatever. who cares?
They said that it was carma. Is it true?
He said that he loves me? Is it true?
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Nonetheless, I'm wrecked.
And that's all that counts, for now. D:
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P.S : I've been plurked : "He cheated on me" a while ago and those responses are coming up so quickly. Gash! I'm just... surprise *shed a tears* THANKS GUYS for keep giving me support and those advices. it helped me that much. thanks thanks thankss. i dunno how to express my gratefulness to all of you. MAY GOD BLESS YOU!! *big hugss and kiss*
Labels: Life, Vulnerable
Happy Buzzday
HAPPY BUZZDAY DILAA !
Gosh!
I just can't believe this!
I'm turning to 15 ??
This isn't prank?
XDDD
P.S :Thanks for all those people who texted me or just give me comment from plurk,facebook or twitter. it means soo much. thanks. <33
Labels: Birthday, Daily life, Life
TGIF <3
Just got back from school.This week has officially sucked so it's much better to refreshing up my mind, a bit.
I really need a break from all of this fucking stuff
AAANDDDD
THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY yihaaaaa. :D *banana dance*
Means it's nearly to wekeend.
And my parents isn't here sooo I will be able to being lazy all day long *rolls on the floor*
Allright then more update later,
I'll go to borrow some comic books and k-drama dvd.
Toodles ^^!
Labels: Daily life, Life, Weekend
Holy Shit, I'm dying.
Hi there peeps :] just a bit update.I don't have enough time for posted anything that is related with SuJu nowadays. too busy with school stuff *sigh*
But I've ever read that they will released their Sorry Sorry Version C On May 15th 2009. so just keep on waiting and be more patient for it. *just like I did*
[ Good news ? ]
Aha, my parents will go outside the city from Friday until Sunday for some bussiness there. I don't wanna know why did they have to go, but yet, it's good in some reasons. I might be able to use the internet connection all day long without my mom's grumbling and her evil eyes keep starring at me. YIPPIE. :D
[ Bad news ? ]
Tmmrw is my boyfie's birthday but I couldn't meet and celebrate it together with him. too bad? ah yeah, ldr stuff. wth? T^T
[ My condition?]
Things are getting more awkward nowadays. I even dunno why, it's like there's a big hole inside of me and ruins all the things there. haha wtf?
I'm getting too sensitive. if there's some noises around me, I'm like "STFU YOU BITCHES" and then quickly, go away.
What the hell is wrong with me??
I dunno why did I becoming more sensitive these days. bcoz of this fucking period time perhaps? ahah fml.
idk for sure but neverthless it makes my rollescoaster mood get worsen.
Oh my mom has just started her grumble right now *rolls eyes* .
Catch u later than peeps. :D
Labels: Daily life, Life, Super Junior
KODOCHA
Oh ok, here it goes. I've been awake for about one hour ago and just realized that it's almost midday lol. But it's ok then, this is my day off so Mom, please please please stop your grumbling and just let me up as late as I want.
And one more thing you need to know, I haven't take a shower yet. So, if you there catch a stink, maybe it comes out from my body. Ahah?
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Allright, I'll tell you what's happening right now even though actually I don't know what will comes out from my hand when I'm typing here. it's coming up naturally. I haven't consider it, yet.
So, let me and my peanut sized brain tell us the story.
Hhmm.. I've been slept at 01.00 am last night. Too late at night? Oh yeah maybe. But when it comes to a free day or a long long holiday, I always sleep late at night and wake up when the sun goes up to the middle of the sky.
*Literally : Noon.
Yesterday, I went to the library and borrow some comic books. The tittle is Kodocha-Kodomo No Omocha or in English it means Child's Play. As a matter of fact, I've read that book when I was in Elemantry School. GOSH, that book was published on 1995 !
I don't want to tell you the whole story, it's just a bunch of nonsense when I have to re-telling the story for some book I've ever read. So please just check it in the wikipedia or youtube.
When I was read this book it's just like, a few seconds ago I was laughing out too loud but a minutes later, it quickly change to tears. This is the greatest comic book I've ever read. Neverthless, it's just give me a different feeling and meaning from what I've got when I was read it in Elemantary School compare with when I'm on Senior High School and read it once again.
Wow, it makes me wonder. A lot of thing.
Time flies and it change the human's heart. It reduce the feeling and the bitter memories (we've ever had) and suddenly it will forgotten quickly. Then, we will feel the warmthness that being given from people around us. It changes our heart. And finally each of us will be separated in our distinct world.
Well, it was the statement that taken from the last book.
It makes me think, if it's so simple to forget each other when we both are separated?
They said, Time will cure our broken hearted.
At first, I didn't want to admit it. But then, when I'm grown up and understand a bit from the thing we called life, I acknowledge it.
Time is all that matter.
T.T
Labels: Daily life, Life
